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Grandmother Part II

Realized I don't have a single picture of the woman...will have to call my mom and fix that :). We just aren't a big family on pictures so instead decided to post a picture of the Little Missouri in North Dakota  which is where she lived.  If I posted a current picture all you'd see is White since they have had buckets of snow so instead picked a spring picture.  Going out this Spring with my mom to throw her ashes on the Little Missouri river which was what she wants. Have to wait to the thaw though since you would need a grenade to crack the river at this point.


So my last grand parent died yesterday.  She was one of my favorites.  She was 97 so not a huge surprise and she had dementia and other health issues so definitely not a horrible thing. 
I hadn't seen her since I was @ 18 cause once I lived on my own I couldn't afford to travel and she was based in North Dakota.

Slower than slow and apartment hunting

Well I am definitely a lame duck at this point.  My position was eliminated as well as another Admin III but luckily with a reorginization 3 Admin III positions were created so at some point in June we will be invited to interview our 3 prospective bosses and see who we want to work for.  The other Admin has first choice and I think she will end up working for a woman that she works closely with now.

I am thinking my two options left will be Payroll or the ASD or Alternative Schools Department.  Payroll will look beter on a resume, but alternative schools right now has a lot of reorginization coming and being able to be in the ground floor of fixing things changing methodologies and maybe even finding another boss that when they ask my opinion actually wants it would be very cool.  Of course being part of the team that has to explain to the old schoolers about the changes and enforce them is less fun, but still not something that really scares me...oh no...people I have never met may not like me very much when I tell them they are doing things wrong and can prove it...

Anyways one of the tenets in my complex just got her rent raised to $1300 per month.  My landlord either has a bad mortgage or is smoking crack.  Since he bought the complex about 2.5 years ago I am thinking bad mortgage.  He is also someone wh oI know when I signed my lease was a house flipper as well so he may have lost his shirt in the recent market.  I can actually afford 1300 a month but to pay that for a 550 sq foot hole in the wall with a crazy old chick who lives upstairs and thinks she's 12 I don't think so. 

My rent won't go up until October but I know it is usually easier to find new housing when schools are in summer session around most cities.  I have already seen 2 2bdroom townhomes for 1250 a month with 2 floors and @ 850-900 sq feet.  I am a little hesitant about it since when I switch positions there is a 3 month trial and I still may end up getting laid off or having to switch desks if whatever position I am in isn't a fit for me.  Also it would entail a lot of change...June move and July new job, but I saw 2 nice places.  One is nicer than the other, private yard and even a garage but the neighborhood is definitely sketchy and the other is a smaller place, no yard but the neighborhood while still apartments seems more family/retiree oriented and when I was looking around the site at least 3 people walked up to me to ask who I was and all which I kind of like...built in neighborhood watch. 

may call the landlords tonight and if they haven't already found a new renter take the next step of getting an interior tour and asking for proof that the landlord is not @ to be foreclosed on.  I have no problem with them credit checking me, should be interesting to find out if they have a problem if I credit check them :).
Official English write up."More than 200 dancers were performing their version of "Do Re Mi", in the Central Station of Antwerp. with just 2 rehearsals they created this amazing stunt! Those 4 fantastic minutes started the 23 of march 2009,8 AM. It is a promotion stunt for a Belgian television program, where they are looking for someone to play the leading role, in the musical of "The Sound of Music". " Not sure why my embed was cut off on the sides but here is the direct link as well http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7EYAUazLI9k&NR=1

Just to prove I am alive

decided to do one of those...answer these 10 question things that are going around.  More outof boredom and the feeling that I should be doing something.

1) If you had $100 to spend on yourself, what would you get?.. Hair cut/dye job by a professional
2) Something you do when nobody is around? (talk to yourself, sing, etc.).. Dance, play wii (I think I look kind of silly so prefer being alone)
3) Most embarrassing moment?...There are so many hard to choose just one
4) Glass half empty or half full? Half empty....hoping to fill it up
5) Something you've always wanted to do but haven't....Visit New Zealand, France basically travel more
6) What did you want to be when you grow up? veterinarian, professional singer, super spy basically Bucakroo Banzai
7) What's your guilty little pleasure? brownies
8) Wine or beer? neither, prefer rum based drinks, If choosing then red wine for wine choice and Newcastle or guiness as the beer choice
9) Devil or angel on your shoulder? depends on the day and the thoughts running through my head. Devil seems stronger overall
10) How important is communication in a relationship? Can't work w/o....not doing such a good job at it  though
11) You've had a bad day at work..what would you like when you get home?  a bath and a maid service
12) Significant other has had a bad day at work..what would you do for him/her? grab him a beer and leave him alone
13) Favorite tv show? Chuck, Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Firefly

Jobs and Stuff

Yes I do exsist.  Though I am still a Luddite with no cellphone, crackberry, or other leash type device in my posession.

Anyways yesterday the head of HR, who sits 15 feet from my desk let me know that there would be a position for me.  I will still get teh letter saying my current position is eliminated with a letter stating my options. 

Our company is doing a large reorginization, which in this decade means lay offs.  HOwever a lot of the lay ofs are actually based on the required passive agressiveness you must display when dealing with Unions.  Because it is such a trial to actually fire people around here at the end of the year they "eliminate positions".  This means that if you are the director of international Affairs but every one hates working with you, you are competent at the job but personality wise awful you are almost impossible to fire within the Union rules.  It is easier for us to say we no longer need an IA Director and go out and hire a Director of Liason Office, thereby creating a "new" job which basically has the same responsibilities.

I have been told that some of these new directors will be hiring Admin 3's so my options are to work for the woman I do who works for the Juvenile hall System, or potentially work for one of the new people.  As of right now I will probably work for the Juvenile Hall woman.  I try in all things to hope for the best and prepare for the worst, but I have a bit of gallows humor which people either like, hate or don't get at all.  This woman actualy gets my humor and matches it with one of her own so i think we could work well together.

My current boss is really self sufficient so i never had to remind him of appointments, keep him on track, but Ms. P has a difficult time with these things and I am hoping I will be a little bit busier because of this.  Juvenile Hall is also a year round institution.  The "Kids" are not sent home for the summer even though I am sure they wish they would be.  I am glad since I prefer to be busy.  The hardest part for me will be being busy again.  I have once again landed into a job which was busy for maybe 6 months and then petered out giving me plenty of time to read blogs and veg at my desk (which I hate).  I am always afraid after I have had a job where I did not do a lot of work that if I become busy again wil I be able to hack it or will I fail since I can't handle that type of work load.

Anyways done babbling.  Oh also have a cough, love when everyone stops to stare at you when you cough. makes me want to yell Boo lol. 

Big Blue Wang

I am changing my settings on this to "adult" only so in case some stranger actually reads it they can't get on me about the fact that I used the word penis without changing my content raiting. *rolls eyes*

Basically lets start with the movie Watchman.  No spoilers here just a blue charachter that is so beyond humanity emotionally that he just doesn't care if he is naked or not, so basically is a big blue naked man throughout the movie.  I think rather androgynous because he does not seem to care about how his nakedness effects people.  Most sexual people I have met who hang out naked and are comfortable in their skin and their skin being shown still acknowledge that people may react to it (either unintentionally or intentionally)

This is an R rated movie.  Up until this point except in extreme comedy movies the male genitals were usually consigned to X rated movies only.  I have always felt this was incredibly misoginistic, unfair and just shows how much of a patriarchal society we are still part of.  Full frontal female nudity can now be seen in the occasional PG-13 and long scenes of female nudity can definitely be shown in R, but male nuditiy has always been relagated to X rated movies because somehow it was more special or sacred than the female body? *snort*

I know men who saw Watchman who complained about the Big Blue Wang and how it distracted them from the movie since they did not care to see male genetalia flapping around. (oh and btw boys seeing a penis that isn't yours, doesn't make you gay). I will admit as a relatively straight female that the naked male body does not do it for me to the same extent that staring at naked female bodies do it for guys but seeing the big blue wang for me was not that big of a deal it just cemented an aspect of the personality of the charachter.  
The fact that straight men seem to get more aroused from looking at a strange naked female then vice versa means the female body should have been the one with the X rating and the male body should have been in its naked glory on R and PG 13 movies long before now.

Personally I think American movies should take a page from European ones and change the mindset where horrendous violence is ok but nudity or sex is uncomforatble or something we should hide.  We embrace movies like the SAW as escapism and then complain when a blue penis is shown on the big screen.
I am just really baffled on our priorities when most people in the group who I was talking with agreed that the BBWang should have been covered, was distracting, and disturbed them greatly but thought the cutting up and torturing of people and other  violence in the movie wasn't even a blip on their mental radar.


Saw this on a friends site found it funny.

Cute website

Since I know some of my friends are interested in the subject thought I'd share a funny site.

Are you a Book addict

Basically this is cut and pasted from http://amyamy.livejournal.com. I read it and laughed and felt the need to share it :). I in no way wrote it. And my name is Rebecca and I am a Literature Abuser :) (It is scary how many of these I said yes too)

Are you, or have you ever been, a Literature Addict?

Literature Addiction:

How many of these apply to you?

1. I have read fiction when I was depressed or to cheer myself up.
2. I have gone on reading binges of an entire book or more in a day.
3. I read rapidly, often "gulping" chapters.
4. I have sometimes read early in the morning or before work.
5. I have hidden books in different places to sneak a chapter without being seen.
6. Sometimes I avoid friends or family obligations in order to read novels.
7. Sometimes I rewrite film or television dialog as the characters speak.
8. I am unable to enjoy myself with others unless there is a book nearby.
9. At a party, I will often slip off unnoticed to read.
10. Reading has made me seek haunts and companions that I would otherwise avoid.
11. I have neglected personal hygiene or household chores until I have finished a novel.
12. I have spent money meant for necessities on books instead.
13. I have attempted to check out more library books than permitted.
14. Most of my friends are heavy fiction readers.
15. I have sometimes passed out from a night of heavy reading.
16. I have suffered blackouts or memory loss from a bout of reading.
17. I have wept or become angry or irrational because of something I read.
18. I have sometimes wished I did not read so much.
19. Sometimes I think my reading is out of control.

If you answered yes to three or more of these questions, you may be a literature addict. An affirmative response to five or more indicates a serious problem. Once a relatively rare disorder, Literature Abuse, or LA, has risen to new levels due to the accessibility of higher education and increased college enrollment since the end of the Second World War. The number of literature abusers is currently at record levels.


Abusers become withdrawn, uninterested in society or normal relationships. They fantasize, creating alternative worlds to occupy, to the neglect of friends and family. In severe cases they develop bad posture from reading in awkward positions or carrying heavy book bags.

In the worst instances, they become cranky reference librarians in small towns. Excessive reading during pregnancy is perhaps the number one cause of moral deformity among the children of English professors and teachers of English and creative writing. Known as Fetal Fiction Syndrome, this disease also leaves its victims prone to lifetime of nearsightedness, daydreaming, and emotional instability.


Recent Harvard studies have established that heredity plays a considerable role in determining whether a person will become an abuser of literature. Most abusers have at least one parent who abused literature, often beginning at an early age and progressing into adulthood. Many spouses of an abuser become abusers themselves.


Fathers or mothers who are English teachers, professors, or heavy fiction readers; parents who do not encourage children to play Nintendo, participate in healthy sports, or watch television in the evening.


Premarital screening and counseling, referral to adoption agencies in order to break the chain of abuse. English teachers in particular should seek partners active in other fields. Children should be encouraged to seek physical activity and to avoid isolation and morbid introspection